Beauty from pain...

I sit in the darkness waiting... 

just waiting for Your promises to shine Your light on me.

Because, I've shed too many tears 

& the pieces of my broken heart
have scattered in the wind. 

I can't do this on my own...

Can you hear me?? 

I'm finally ready to let it all go, 

to let You have all control.

Because, When my heart was broken 

You didn't just put a band-aide on it, 

walk away & let it heal on its own;

With the painful scars left for all the world to see.

No. You picked up the pieces of my heart so lovingly...

You put me back together, 

You made me whole again...

You washed me Pure.

& now my heart is forever in Your hands.

Somehow, Someway, Someday

I know,

You will take all my pain away.

You will turn my tears of anguish into tears of Joy

From the ashes, From the pain

You create a beauty that cannot be found any other way.

Our Miracle + Our Saviour = Jesus!!

Jesus is our Miracle every moment of every day... 
When you feel lost & alone Jesus is right there carrying you. 
He will never let you go..
He will never stop loving you...
He will never stop picking you up when you fall...
His goodness never ends & His mercy is unmeassurable.
There are just no words to express, in any language, how Great & Awesome our God is...  

To begin again...

    She listened to all the wrong voices, She answered all the wrong calls. She gave her heart away to the wrong boy and before she knew it, she was in over her head.

One night he left bruises on her arms, her throat, and her face. (You know...the kind you can't explain to your friends when they ask, 'What happened?!?') But the next day he said he loved her, said he was sorry. He said he would die if she didn't forgive him (& just for affect, he pulled a revolver out of his pocket) He said he would rather be dead than hurt her again... He said it would never happen again...

     ...until it did. 

 So for weeks at a time she hid away in shame; avoiding the pitying looks, shocked expressions, and concerned whispers. She avoided the ones who loved her, who wanted to her help her. She just couldn't leave him and she knew that that was what they would try to make her do. She was afraid...not of what he would do to her, she knew he wouldn't put that much effort in finding her if she decided to leave. But she was afraid of what she would do without him. Her world revolved around him. He kept a roof over her head, food in her belly, and clothes on her back. Where would she go?? What would she do with out him??

Then one day...it was all over.

She wakes up one morning...and he's gone. No note, no goodbye... the only sign that he ever been there was the dirty socks he'd left on the floor. 

The relief she feels goes hand-in-hand with the terror she still can't escape. She has been handed her freedom on a silver platter and she has no idea what to so with it...

Where does she run to...?? Where to begin...again?? The best place to start is always the beginning. 

I'm a Survivor

I will make it

This cold floor will not keep down.

I will fight for what I know I deserve.

I will not give up, 

Because I have found a place of Redemption, 

I have found a strong tower to run to. 

Now. I know I am safe. 

The fighter of all my battles,

The one who will never let me go...

His name is Jesus!

And He is teaching me

To begin again...

 

Siren's call...

The waves crash violently against the rock's,

Out of the storm, voice's rise; 

Drawing me closer & closer to the teeth like rocks

but... the voice's are so beautiful

full of peace and hope that I just can't resist.

There is one voice above the rest that calls to me alone.

It is so sure...

Who could doubt the voice of beauty and truth??

Which is her very essence.

You might not hear it but I do, 

The voice that calls to me & to me alone

has coated her promises with a sadness she tries to hide.

In her irresistible call, she also warns:

"Turn back! Live! Come no closer..."

But my mind is muddled, 

as I hear an even stronger, louder voice drawing me near,

"Come closer, come to me, I will save you

...& you will save me.

Come closer, brave one, 

all will be well."

Not for a moment....

God is with us  through every storm, every trial, every sorrow. I know I could never make it on my own and don't want to try. We are not the forsaken...we are the Blessed and Wanted and Loved!!!

Not for a moment ~ Meredith Andrews

Verse 1
You were reaching through the storm
walking on the water
even when I could not see
in the middle of it all
when I thought You were a thousand miles away
not for a moment did You forsake me
not for a moment did You forsake me

CHORUS
After all You are constant
After all You are only good
After all You are sovereign
not for a moment will You forsake me
not for a moment will You forsake me

Verse 2
You were singing in the dark
whispering Your promise
even when I could not hear
I was held in Your arms
carried for a thousand miles to show
Not for a moment did You forsake me

And every step every breath you are there
every tear every cry every prayer
in my hurt at my worst
when my world falls down
not for a moment will You forsake me
even in the dark
even when it's hard
you will never leave me
after all

not for a moment will You forsake me

Its just a game of... Hide & Seek

If I hide...will you seek me??

Will you search for me, no matter how long it takes??

I wait for you alone in the dark...

its the perfect hiding place & you'll never find me.

...but I hope you do.

I wait forever for you (Literally!),

but you never come.

When were the roles reversed?

When did the hider suddenly become the seeker??

But I promise you this:

I will search for you and never stop.

Cause, for you, I will search every corner of the earth.

For you, I will stop hiding in my shadows of shame and fear.

Because, for you, I would do anything, 

I would give anything...even my life. 

Ready or not...here I come. 

Child lift up your head....

   Sometimes this world does unbelievable, unspeakable things to the ones we love and to us. And we can't understand why this is happening to us, why this is happening to them....???

'It's not FAIR!!" I shout at the sky, in my room on my knees crying out to God. With my lips I don't blame Him but in my heart I am asking 'Why? Why did this have to happen??" I ALWAYS get an answer from God... even if its not always the one I want to hear. He says "Trust in me, Trust me with this. I will carry this for you. Just give it over to me. Surrender to me! And watch what I can do." 

We serve an understanding God... Amen! No matter how many times we hang our head in shame at the things we have done in our past He lifts us up and reminds us that He has set us free! We are no longer held down by the chains of sin, we are washed pure, sanctified by His blood. And I know His blood will never lose its power to heal the brokenhearted, to heal the sick, & to convict the lost. Our God is not limited! Let Him use you for His glory!!

Redeemed by Big Daddy Weave

Seems like all I can see was the struggle

Haunted by ghosts that lived in my past

Bound up in shackles of all my failures

Wondering how long is this gonna last

Then You look at this prisoner and say to me "son

Stop fighting a fight that's already been won"

I am redeemed, You set me free

So I'll shake off theses heavy chains

Wipe away every stain now I'm not who I used to be

I am redeemed

All my life I have been called unworthy

Named by the voice of my shame and regret

But when I hear You whisper, "Child lift up your head"

I remember oh God, You're not done with me yet

Don't let your past stop you from being used by God. He created us with a purpose. If you're 5 or 100, God can use you. Don't give up...just give in. Give in to His love and strength. His way is perfect.... 

HE is coming back QUICKLY!!

The Lord is coming quickly. Are you ready?? It breaks my heart when I think about all the ones I love who are lost and not ready for what is coming. I thank my Jesus, my Savior for dying on that cross and shedding His precious blood for my salvation. But, lately, after seeing all of these prophecies come to pass, I have been thanking Him more and more that He is coming back for me... He is coming to take me home!
 Have you forgotten that this is not our home??  

 ^"Because thou hast kept the word of my patience, I also will keep thee from the hour of temptation, which shall come upon all the world, to try them that dwell upon the earth.

 Behold, I come quickly: hold that fast which thou hast, that no man take thy crown." James 5: 7&8

One day, every knee will bow and every tongue will confess that He is Lord. So why wait?? 

I love this song by Anthony Evans "I Choose Now!" 

I don’t want tragedy to be the only Thing that leads me to your throneWith every moment of my life With pain or joy I will cryYou are God alone You’ve given me the choice to kneel or walk awayI’ve struggled with surrender long enough to say

I choose nowTo be humbled in your presenceI choose nowTo fall on my faceCause one dayEvery knee will bow but JesusI choose now.
Lord, open our hearts, our minds, our ears, our understanding to your coming. Prepare us Lord Jesus, Give us your Strength and Comfort to continue each day striving for more of You.

'Forgiven'

This is the cover and a quick look inside my 2nd book 'Forgiven' Enjoy!

   Collin wanted to yell in frustration! He was so close to finding Ember. He thought about yelling her name or calling Derek out, but before his thoughts could turn into words he was attacked from behind. Collin was on the ground but he didn't stay down. He couldn't see who or what he was fighting but he didn't care. He threw his weight against the person to throw them off balance; swung and missed a few times but finally made contact. It was like a blind rage had taken over Collin’s body, he couldn't concentrate on anything else except defeating what was right in front of him. 
If he had been aware what was going on around him, Collin would have heard Derek telling them to stop. Yelling at Carmen to back off but she wasn't listening, it was all a game to her.
Finally, the blackness receded from around Collin’s eyes and he saw who he was fighting. His pause gave her the exact opening to tackle him to the ground again. She attacked him at the waist, straddled him with her legs, and put her hand at his throat. With a look of triumph and satisfaction she asked Derek, “Did you know this ’boy’ was following us?” 
    “Yes. I was hoping he would get lost or give up.” Derek answered her irritated.
Up close Collin could see he was wrong. The girl with Derek was not a girl at all. She was his age, her tiny frame had fooled him. And as he stared up at her she wasn't just merely pretty…she was exquisite. Her skin gave proof of her Hispanic origin with its perfectly, evened sun-kissed, sandy desert skin. Her lips were full with a deep rose hue, and those eyes…those eyes that could catch the slightest movement darted back and forth taking everything in. She had the darkest, almost black, eyes Collin had ever seen. 
   “Carmen! Get off of him!” Derek was clearly furious with her. 
    “Aw… but I was having so much fun.”

'That's what My Mirror said...'

 I looked in My Mirror today and it told me

 that my hair wasn't straight enough; and my thighs were too big.

My Mirror told me that I wasn't worthy to step outside my door. 

It told me that everyone would look at me in revolting disgust

...& I believed it.

My Mirror told me that all people see when they look at me are the blemishes on my face.

My Mirror tells me everyday that I'm not good enough 

& I'll never measure to the beauty that I obviously do not have.

...& I believed it.

And since I believe what it tells me...

I puke my guts out till there is nothing left of me but bone,

I 'exercise' myself till I collapse from pure exhaustion,

I count calories till it consumes my life. 

All I ever think about is what My Mirror tells me.

& My Mirror tells me...

 that no one could ever possibly love someone who looks like me.

An animated object told me that I wasn't the "Fairest of them all",

...& I believed it.

Stupid me...

a true bride

I am your bride, 

from today till forever...

I promise to be true, pure, unblemished

Search my heart,

I give You all I am,

My past & my Future.

I owe You everything...but You ask for nothing.

You alone are the one I can trust with my heart.

You alone are the one I can give my love to...

No bruises on my arms, 

No scars on my heart.

You promised me Forever...& I believed You.

My Comfort, my Strength, my Everything.

You are my Husband, 

my Lord, my Savior...

My One & Only.

"Won't YOU be the anchor of my soul...?"

My heart is tossed to and fro,

on the waves of life.

My feet no longer take me down the path called, 'Straight & Narrow',

but the world continues to pull at me from every direction.

I need an Anchor for my wondering soul...

I need a Stronghold for my restless heart...

O' Giver of life, Comforter of the weak,

Be still my soul.

Content my heart to only long for You.

For in this...,

I will be satisfied.

For You are my anchor, my stronghold...

Thus all I need.

Pre-Dominican Republic Trip

These are a few interesting facts I found about the Dominican Republic. I like to do my research before I go haha!  

• the Dominican Republic is the second largest Caribbean Island
• the country became independent in 1821.
• Christopher Columbus landed on it in 1492 and it became the site of the first permanent European settlement in the Americas 
• During World War II, a group of Jews escaping Nazi Germany fled to the Dominican Republic and founded the city of Sosúa. It has remained the center of the Jewish population since. 
• The people and their customs have origins mixing of Spaniard, African and Taino roots.

                              
 The culture is so diverse, I can't wait to experience the different influences. I leave tomorrow @ 6:30am. (God willing)

What do you think my chances are of getting to lay out on this beach?? haha Pray for me, that I be a witness, a light, and an example of Christ. 

(?)...Who?

How could this happen...??

We loved so much...it can't be over.

I'm not going to stop!

This can't be over...everything we felt,

How can it be denied??

(?) just not thinking straight, but I'll show (?)

(?) can't live without me

(?) needs me and when (?) finally wakes up and see's that,

(?)'ll be on (?) hands and knees begging me to take (?) back...

Its only just a matter of time.

We belong together...

(?) belongs to ME!

(?) is MINE!!!

# 1 Rule!! DO NOT...

How many of us have begun a relationship to change somebody??

Well, has it worked?? Considering the typical statuses on Facebook...I'm guessing not. Why do we have the tendency to think we can fix people, that we can change them?? We have the best intentions at times...to give someone confidence or even to make them feel loved. We feel sorry for them! But trust me, Pity is not what they need. But no matter how we try, the fact is: People are who they are. They can't & won't change unless they want to. We spend all this time giving, caring, loving people who just use us; because we think, optimistically,... "One day they'll change." The best only & advice I can give is turn them over to God because He is the only one who can change them. Love them enough to trust them in God's hands.

But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, "With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible". Matthew 19:26

Let it go...

How long will we ignore these tears that fall like rain??

How long will this ache deep within us...overwhelm??

Will we suffer forever alone...

Pretending that everything is fine??

...do you feel like screaming yet??

Who ever said holding back...

 Revealing nothing...

 Keeping everything bottled up inside...

Is a good thing??

SHOULD BE SHOT!!!

Just let it go, love...its okay 

Just let it go...

Where can I go???

    Sometimes life is more overwhelming then we can bear on our own. Who do we turn to in these moments? What do we turn to in these moments? We could follow the cliche of the world and take something or do something that will guarantee we remember nothing when we wake up. Oh, and wouldn't that be so much easier then dealing with our problems? Just forget, as simple as that, it never happened. 
We all deal with loss in different ways. We all handle the situations of life with our own uniqueness.  But when our friends are not there to lift us up, when our family is not there to support us...what do we do then? Do we give up or give in?? If it was only that easy. Life doesn't stop or end when we throw in the towel, it keeps going. The sun still rises and morning always seems to come again. That is when we need to find ourselves on our knees. Praying, seeking God for the peace and joy only He can give us. There is a song we sing at my church, "Where could I go but to the Lord" the last verse and chorus goes like this... 

Life here is grand with friends I love so dear

Comfort I get from God's own Word

Yet when I face the chilling hand of death

Where could I go but to the Lord

Where could I go oh where could I go

Seeking a refuge for my soul

Needing a friend to save me in the end

Where could I go but to the Lord

'Death comes to us all' (tribute to Princess Isabel in Braveheart) When the end comes, Will you be ready?? Will you know the one person who can take all your doubts & fears away?? 

Jesus is waiting for you... 

                              With open arms...

Act: Zero Scene: 3

*How it all should have been*

Humph! Smack!

  Could this day get any worse? 

    "Hey, Sorry. I didn't see you there."

    "Obviously..."

    "Here, let me help..." He knelt down and reached for one of her books.

    "I got it! Thanks!" Grabbing it out of his reach.

He watched her, but didn't walk away like she had hoped he would. "Are you new here?"

    "Yes and late." She tried to walk away but he followed her.

    "What class do you have next?" Apparently he was not use to being brushed off. She looked down at her schedule, 

    "Mrs. Fishpaw. AP English."

    "Well, then you are going the wrong way. Come on, I'll show you." He led them back the way they had come. "My name is Luke, by the way."

    "Jade." She replied shortly.

    "Nice to meet you! Here we are..."

    "Great! Bye." And she hurried into the classroom. 

    "Mr. Sleagle, thank you for joining us."

    "No problem, Teach!"

  Jade was beyond embarrassed. he was in the same class!?! She had practically slammed the door in his face. 
 Why was he just standing there? It was creeping her out the way he was looking at her. Jade turned her attention back to to the teacher and tried to ignore him. 

   "My name is Jade Philips. I'm new."

   "Yes, I have your information right here. Take a text book from the back row, take a seat, & then turn in your text to page 8." Mrs. Fishpaw was a nice teacher but she was in a great hurry this morning. "Same goes for you, too, Luke. You know the drill."

  As Jade went towards the back row she saw a bleach blond wave at Luke. "I saved a seat for you, Luke. Right by me..." She said it so suggestively even a deaf person couldn't have missed it.

    "Thanks, Krissie, but I think I'll sit with Jade." There was a collective gasp in the room. Apparently, Krissie wasn't the type of girl who got turned down. 

  Luke sat down next to Jade like they had know each other their whole lives. 

    "You didn't have to do that."

    "I know. But I wanted to."

This boy did call, This boy respected her, and This boy cherished her... 

& SEX was never part of the equation.

Now! What have we learned??

      

Act Zero: Scene: 2

Chicken, Coward, Wimp...

(Yep, that about sums it up)

Same old story that you have heard a hundred times...it has almost become boring to you.

  Charming, slick boy draws innocent, naive girl in with his promises and 'sweet' nature. He has mystery and a wild side that can't be denied. Every man has his castle..or broken down trailer to entice his conquests. 

As always, he can have any girl he wants and he chooses her. Her, with no confidence, no self-esteem, no belief in herself or her worth; she just wants to fit in. She just wants to be wanted. 

I'm ready...I'm ready for a mature relationship. I'm ready for whatever he wants. I think I might...Love him. 

He kissed her slowly like he was tasting her. He took her hand and pulled her into a room...with a bed?? She became very aware about what was about to happen when the back of her knees touched the edge of the bed. 

   I should tell him... Honesty is the best way to begin a relationship like this. He'll only be upset I didn't tell him sooner. He would go slower, he would be more patient with me of he knew. She argued with herself as he tried to unbuckle her pants. 
    "Hey," She pulled back a little, which was virtually impossible to do since she felt trapped between the him and the bed. "I...I just wanted you to know...before we do...this. I'm a virgin." She said it easily not wanting to make a big deal out of it. 
    "You're a WHAT!?!" He jumped away from her like she had just started foaming at the mouth. 
    "It's okay," She said calmly. "Really it is. We are about to start something here and I wanted to be honest with you. We should be able to share everything with each other."
  The look on his face was pure terror! "Yeah. I just remembered..I have something to do. I've got to go. I'll call you...sometime."

Needless to say...he never called. 

Act: Zero Scene:1

This is a short story (literally! 12 pages) I wrote last September...it meant a lot to me, especially the ending, I think I have only showed this to one other person. I hope you grasp my meaning and leave your thoughts and comments below...

Act: Zero

Life in Session

Scene:1 What happened to me...

-girl meets guy...

First day of high school. Everybody is looking at me... I don't have the right clothes or shoes, my back-pack is probably even wrong... I feel like an outsider, no one will look me in the eyes. Why is this so hard?

Humph! Smack!  My books went flying as he ran right into me.

"Whoa! Hey, sorry about that." he smiled & helped me pick up my books...the first smile I had seen all day. 

  Every time he saw me after that he waved & smiled. The popular girls that hung out with his crowd rolled their eyes and said, "What a loser!" behind my back. Yeah,thanks! That's feels great. Like I didn't already know, I don't have a snowballs chance in... I was going to say Hawaii! What did you think I meant??

  He was nice to me...too nice. He paid attention to me...some said I should have seen it coming. He noticed ME!! & unfortunately...he noticed too much. 

  We all know where this is going so lets get to the details of what you really want to hear, what has kept you reading this far, lets get to answers of the questions you are dying to ask....

  

  He was even so nice to me that one day after school he invited me to his house to hang out...

     The most gorgeous, popular guy in school asked ME to his place...?!?How could I say 'No'...??

  & it started just like this...He kissed me. Said he had been thinking about doing that since the first time he saw me. He kissed me again, and again, and again; harder, longer...I couldn't catch my breath.

    "Wait...I have to tell you something..." I said, pushing him away from me.

    "What!?!" he snapped, impatient with the interruption.

    "I'm...a...virgin." she answered barely above a whisper.

   "That's it!?!" He kissed me so hard! And started pulling off my clothes.

  Its amazing how quickly clothes can just...come off. I didn't even know my shirt was off until I felt him...feeling me.

  

 Cold, Hard Truth! it was over before it began.

  When he was done...he got off of me, threw my shirt at me, pulled on his jeans, & said he was late for practice. And then he was gone... the 'trailer' door slamming behind him.

   

    I sat there, for a moment, feeling so guilty and dirty. What had I just done? What had I just given up? I am NOT this stupid, I'm not this naive, I'm not this pathetic!! How could I  have let this happen? I was...hurting when I finally left. That was not what my first time was suppose to be like...it couldn't be!

     Four years of high school passed... He never called me, waved, smiled, or even talked to me again...

There are 3parts to this story, I'll post 1 each week... 

    

John Corby's Worlds Largest Garage Sale 2012

I went to John Corby's Worlds Largest Garage Sale 2012 today to hopefully sell some of my books and start the process of getting my name out there. I was able to talk to John Corby (Thanks Mom!) and be on the radio!!! I was incredibly nervous but I did my best to slow down and explain my book in away to catch people's attention. I sold six books today and I am thrilled, ecstatic, & elated...& if all those words mean the same thing then I guess you know how excited I am. Thank you to those who bought my book today. If you took one of my business card please feel welcomed to contact me. 

 
Oooo & thanks to both of my parents (Shawn & Angie) for taking me up there and coming up with the idea in the first place. I Love my biggest fans =D

Reason Why??

If you could have asked...you would have.

If your pride and torn heart would have let you...

You would have asked, "Why?"

"Why!?! When I loved you so much, would you do this to me?"

I wouldn't have told you then...

but now...??

There was this still, soft voice in my head...in my heart,

Telling me...

"No..."

And, Oh, how I prayed, how I ached, and how I burned inside

After what I did to you.

But, honestly, wasn't it easier to take then, 

Then to hear it from me now...??

(You're still holding on...but I let you go years ago)

So, My Reason Why...??

It's Simple...

                       

....but not at all Sweet.

"Nobody puts Baby in a corner!"

"No body puts Baby in a corner..." Classic line by Patrick Swayze on the movie 'Dirty Dancing' ...which I Love! And the reason Baby was sitting in the corner, those who have not seen the movie might ask...?? Baby had found something that she was passionate about, that she loved to do, that made her feel alive; that brought her out of her melancholy life of appearances, proper behavior,and expectations. Needless to say, her parents did not approve...
How many times have we given up on an idea or a dream because someone told us we couldn't do it or 'that's Stupid!' or shot you down like you were living in some childish fantasy?? How many times have we actually listened to the critics & haters in our lives?? I believe with every breath in my body if you (through Jesus Christ) stand firm and believe in yourself anything is possible. Stay determined, keep fighting for your passions, and dreams; don't let them go! Believe in yourself! Trust yourself!! Find something you Love, be it a career or a hobby, don't limit yourself and what YOU can do. No matter what happens in your life or the people in your life the only thing really holding you back is YOU! You have a brain...USE IT!! And start thinking for yourself. Don't let anyone put your dreams in a corner or sweep them under a rug. But most of all, don't let yourself. We are our own worse enemies at times. 

Strong Enough...??

If I am strong enough to believe in myself, respect myself, dream for myself....

Why would I need you??

Who are you to me??

Are you Strong Enough to 

put up with me....??

Love me through every rejection,

Forgive me every time I hurt you

(& trust me, it will be on purpose),

Fight with me when I tell you to leave???

Are you Strong Enough

to challenge me,

make me laugh,

 bring me to love???

Are you still going to love me when I don't love you...

....and never will.

Something...or Someone??

Something came through my window last night....

Was it a Ghost, an Angel, an Iblis (a demon),

or was it Love...??

Something...or Someone crawled through my window last night...

Bring me peace, joy, contentment 

& a sense of freedom I haven't felt in so long...

"Who are you??" I ask "What are you??

Please! Don't leave...

Come closer...."

The Presence came closer and closer

Surrounding me, overwhelming me...

"If you don't ask, I won't tell..."

Life...

We all make mistakes, we all have regrets, we all look back over our lives at times and say, 'What was I thinking?!?' But that's LIFE!! We make mistakes, we learn from them. A regret I had today: a delivery guy came to take my grandma's refrigerator away; I opened the door for him and immediately his cheery disposition just shot through me. I'm serious! For 8am this guy had a 'Singin' in the rain' kind of attitude...Oh and he was very, very...very good looking. Haha! And now this is my regret: I was standing there in my scrubs, I had just got done working out, I was tired; I hadn't slept well the night before and I was really in no mood to talk to talk all 'Sunshine and Rainbows' with anyone while this guy was going on about how grateful he was to have a job. I agreed with him and then just went back inside. I could have totally witnessed to this guy, talked to him more...anything other then what I did. Maybe even got his #, who knows...?? Haha! But that's not the point...if you have regrets for doing something completely stupid in your life, you know what you did wrong....DON'T DO IT AGAIN!! But if you miss an opportunity, like I did, because you have all these excuses why you shouldn't take a chance then you could be cheating yourself out of an AMAZING Experience!!! Regrets, Mistakes, Stupidity, Foolishness, Spontaneity, Overwhelming Happiness, Accomplishment, an 'On Top of the World' feeling; is all part of a little thing I like to call...LIFE!!! So Enjoy it!

Forbidden

I recently had my first book published. I am crazy excited, i don't know what to do next. My goal right now is getting my name out there and seeing where this passion i have will lean me. My first book is called 'Forbidden'.  Its a Teen based Sci-FY book. (if you like Twilight...You will like my book. But if not, try something new and expand your horizon). If you have any questions or would like to know more about my book...just ask.

Life without a reason to Live it...

Day after day we struggle with the hardships that are called LIFE. We fall down, we get back up again. We make mistakes, we make hasty decisions and then we learn from them. Life isn't a race. Don't get me wrong, we all have an ultimate goal. Heaven or Hell?? Both two VERY real places. But some people seem to race against the clock. We are TOO busy to spend time with our families. We are TOO busy to be there for the people who need us the most. We are TOO concerned with # 1 to worry about those suffering around us. But the clock is running out. Time will not be beat. You can't pay off Time and you can't win Time over with numerous good deeds. We will all come to our end one way or another but will it be a peacefully end, ready to meet your maker or an end full of regrets and fear?? That my friend's is up to YOU. No one can make the hard decisions for you....

HE already made the ultimate choice, HE already made the ultimate decision. HE choose to die...for YOU!!!

Whatz it all about??

Desperation, Passion, Life...
       Where do the broken hearted go when they have no escape from what life throws at each of us everyday?? I appreciate opinions and free thought. Nothing is too radical, nothing is too big to imagine possible.